obsidianblaq's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Iris so, i have a song for you. i don't often post songs on here, someone once told me to rely on my own words instead of those of others. but sometimes you just can't say it well enough yourself. i'm not sure this song relates directly to the way i'm feeling right now, but it struck a chord, and it's been one of those songs that's always there for you... like a friend in the background, there to catch you as you trip... i'm not a person who cries easily over things. i am kind of, but not really. sometimes i'll have a bad day and the emotion just isn't there, as much as i want to let the tears spill. but today i sat down at the computer, said hi to tanya. asked her how she was. i told her i felt dead. and an instant later a shiver went down my spine and i started crying. justlike that... vaguely disturbing on my part. just sitting here, tears rolling. thank god there was no one else in the room. it's everything. it's not been a great couple of days. the underlying tones of everything are getting to me. the whole feeling unaccomlpished thing. the conversation with people that kind of tipped everything off. and the lack of sleep. running on 3 hours in 2 days. it's not smart. the family has been avoiding my scowl... yea. tis not been the greatest of afternoons. Iris 8:35 p.m. - 2004-06-29 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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