obsidianblaq's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- meh meh. i've always hated that word. it pisses me off. it's soooo apathetic. and yet i find myself over the last 2 days saying it repetively. lol. on a walk through the streets of my quiet town graham told me he didn't think this "open relationship" was working. i was waiting for that. apparently theres just something about me that doesn't work in his world. meh. see, there i go again. I'll be thinking, and in response to a thought i'll say it aloud. "meh." to the empty space around me. i was hoping he could be my summer fling. something to keep my mind occupied, keep me from straying onto paths i didn't want to walk. not going to happen though. went for a walk with fata afterwards. the guys great. has a lot of good words in his head. helped a lot to let me vent and offered thoughts of his own. i made the record for least amount of time caring. half an hour and my entire way of looking at things was changed. didn't care about graham anymore. certain people aren't quite so evil. it's interesting the way i instantaneously change sometimes. 3:11 p.m. - 2004-06-26 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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